Mademoiselle Kina

Tears of Anger

2009-09-02T02:12:00.005+08:00

You just love adding fuel to fire don't you?
Why?
...
Why?
...
Why?
....
Do you just love doing that to me?

Do you know
It angers me so bad,
That
Hatred actually began to rise in me.

Something that I shouldn't be feeling at all
...
But at that point of time,
Nothing else matters.

I tried to control my feelings,
I dare not show my weakness.
To you and to everyone else.
I tried my hardness
...
But
I'm guessing it was not hard enough.

Because
Tears started to clog in my eyes.
Tears of sadness?
Tears of frustration?
Tears of weakness?
I really don't know.

What I know was,
Those tears just
Started to drip down to nowhere.
Dripping and
Dripping and
Dripping
...
And there was no way for me to stop it.

My hand hurt.
I felt as though something went inside of me.
I was shocked,
She was shocked too.
Something hit me
...

I didn't want to look at you
I didn't want to talk to you
I didn't want to joke with you
I didn't want to ask favours from you
I didn't want anything at all.

Then at night,
I heard sadness.
I was curious,
Curious to know what was that sadness for.

Morning came.
I looked at you
And
Realised that your eyes looked so red.
Curiosity,
Yup it strikes me again.

I thought to myself,
When will I Ever Be able to talk to you again
...
I'm really not sure at all.

Lots to say but where do I start?

2009-08-15T01:54:00.009+08:00

I haven't been blogging for ages.. "I know!"
And I even received a comment from my dearest kakak sedare. Hmmm, let me quote it.. "wipe dust!" OMG right?! Ish! Hehe:p

Actually the truth is, I've been blogging, just that I didn't feel like posting it. Weird?! I know! Tell me about it! I don't know myself sometimes.

Time check 0206hours 15 August 2009.
I'm all alone at home.. feeling all so boring, cause no ones at home. Hmmm...
But oh wells, the good thing is, I get to spend "ME-time" hehe:p.

"Strangers are just friends waiting to happen."
"Stranger is a person with whom one has had no personal acquaintance."
I came to a realisation today, that sometimes, the people that we've never met, never known, never seen and... more, are actually the people that we'll have the bestest of conversations.
And I was right! Cause tonight proves that. I was chatting with this person online and it was one of the bestest chat I've ever had. I've never met this person before nor do we know much about each other but the person was very motivating in what I've got to say. I'm thankful to have had that chat, because it really opens up my thoughts towards life. So thank you new found friend!

A friend once told me "The world revolves around you, not others". And sometimes, "Being alone is not that bad, because then, you get to know yourself much more better than you already do". Beautiful statements.. Don't you think so? :)

But then, I thought to myself, having others companion isn't that bad right?

Hmmm.. You know what?, I'm just confusing myself here. Right?
So if there's anyone of you out there who can tell me and maybe share you thoughts, do comment or tag me! I would really appreciate that! :):)

Toodles all!
Ciaoz! <3>

Personality Test

2009-07-19T23:52:00.004+08:00

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Try it, might be shocked by the answers. I was! At some part!

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

That's all folks!
Ciaoz!

Page for Expression

2009-07-19T22:42:00.005+08:00

A friend once asked,
"Asal kau tak nak buat blog eh?"
Here comes my reply,
"Buat ape nak share life story aku dengan orang eh?"

It's so ironic now, after thinking back what I've said to her. Haha.

In my spare time, I do read up some blogs posted by others - some of whom I know and some not so much. It seems to me that different people have different purpose when they have a blog of their own.

I'm someone who's full of thoughts - thoughts that are sometimes quite complicated. And I have lots of opinions on things too - stuffs that are happening now and have had happened.
I would love to share all this, but then I wonder, will anyone listen to me? It will be so weird to just call a friend and say, "Hey! Do you have sometime to hear me out?"

Then, something cross my mind - BLOG. Why not create a blog to post everything and anything that's on my mind?
It's true that not everyone will read it up... But to be able to get it out off the chest feels so much better than keeping it to yourself. Don't you think so? That's the only thing that I want - to be able to let it out.
Opinions are welcome, even though I did said I hate them. At times, you need one and at times, not so much. Kind of 50/50 there...

...So that's it! I hope nothing will stop me from saying anything and everything that I want. And I will definitely try my very best to keep my blog interesting.

That's all folks!
Ciaoz!